Tuesday, May 23, 2017

The Endless Road of Loss

Lost opportunities. Lost years.

The list of missed experiences has no end: college, friends, my own apartment, lunch out with girlfriends, dinner and drinks, vacations, travel, unconditional love, dating, a wedding, freedom, books....

But it takes just one thought for all that to evaporate: our children. They had no choice. 

My loss, though painful, pales into insignificance.

8 comments:

  1. Really sucks, doesn't it? Other people blabber about their proms, their family reunions, their petty concerns, and little kids' birthdays, and we have nothing except spiritual warfare. I really do like your posts, they are raw and I don't think you are being dishonest. Yeah. Mary, I'm sorry.

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    1. Thank you, but it's nothing compared to those who were born into that group. They are the ones for whom it really sucks.

      All the best to you, Len.

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  2. Hello,

    I came across your life story. It touched my heart. I can relate to it. It seems that through your studies you are understanding human behavior.
    Thank you for sharing. I would enjoy to diolog with you.
    Thanks,
    Raul

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    1. Thank you for your kind words. I will ever be learning.

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  3. Testing. Tried to post previously but it didn't show?

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    1. This is because I moderate the comments.

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  4. Mary,
    All of us involved feel these regrets deeply. Yet did we really have choices in these things? What were the factors in our youth and upbringing which compelled us to embrace the delusions of the COG? We were young and immature. Looking back now on the young man that I was, I feel little recognition or empathy. Al these years later I have come to value my regrets but to reject the guilts. That may have been me then, but it not now. Now I work with what I have, the love in my heart, the richness of life, and I am able to forgive myself.
    Your insight and writing instruct and nourish. Thank you so much.
    Gary

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    1. Thank you for your kind words. I also feel like that former me is a stranger.

      Understanding brings freedom and forgiveness. There really are no short-cuts.

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